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For future referrence DC is a w*nker.
When I started seeing Phil and broke up with James I vowed that I wouldn’t let anyone else ever treat me the way he did (total lack of respect, only wanted one thing, destroying my confidence because it felt like yet again I wasn’t good enough everytime I wanted anything more and he didn’t)
Oops, been a while, hey?!
Well, I can now no longer talk to Joe and Ian properly because after the joking about a spitroast Ian, unsurprisingly, took the joke too far and was texting me about it (one of the messages was, ‘we are both watching the porn channel thinking of you x’ Ummm, ok…) So I have been avoiding them for some time but then last night bumped in to them briefly. Hmm…wasn’t awkward at least.
Anyway the big news is; I “broke up with” DC! Kinda. Well we slept together a few times in June, then August I didn’t really see him for most of it – I think he was away for quite a lot of it though. Then this month we’ve been together a few times but I went away with Fiona and Soph from uni and they don’t know I’ve slept with him but they do know how much I like him and that he really likes me too. We ended up talking about him on the last night and the both said that he obviously really likes me (which, cynical little me, I’ve always believed that he just wants some sort of ‘outlet’ and I’m convenient!) They both agreed with me when I said that I had to give him up 
( This had been brought about because he had said that we’d meet up at the gym one day last week so I planned the day around that and went for coffee with Nic at lunchtime. Well who should be there but DC?! He was just reading his book and while I was taking my jacket off and sorting my hair out I could see him looking over at my waist/hips out of the corner of his eye (Ha to PNA who thinks my hips are too wide for DC to be interested!) So I sat with Nic and she was saying that she is happy to be rid of Ady (her ex) unless she thinks of his body so I said, ‘I know what you mean…’ and went to look meaningfully at DC so she’d get what I meant but he was already looking at me so I went bright red and looked down and left him confused about why I was blushing just looking at him and her very confused about why I was going red about her ex’s body!! Lolz indeed.
Anyway, as he got up to leave he looked over at me and Nic was checking her phone so he mouthed, ‘Come over to mine.’ So I mouthed the same back to check what he’d said and he nodded grinning. So I went over to his and we had a slightly awful “session” purely because of a contraceptive malfunction. Dear Lord. I am now hoping for my period to arrive when it’s supposed to but I’m doing a test early next week if it’s not arrived by then and if it does arrive then I’m doing a test the second it finishes to be certain that all is ok. But we were lying together afterwards and he mentioned that he’d done a class at the gym that morning and that he was meant to be at some party that evening so basically despite having mentioned meeting at the gym to me twice he wasn’t actually going to be there. A*se. Well I’d started avoiding him and when we were away we all agreed that I was doing the right thing. Anyway when I got back from holiday I still really wanted to see him but was attempting to behave, then I went out for coffee with Nic (we only do this once a week, I realise it sounds like a daily occurence!) and he was there with a friend so I casually waved at him and went and sat down to wait for Nic. When she got there we were both having a wonderous time (obviously, coffee=greatly exciting) and out of the corner of my eye I saw him and his friend leaving so I thought that was for the best and he hadn’t waved or anything. A few minutes later I saw him walking over so he came up and said ‘hi’ so I introduced him and Nic and he shook her hand (I’m sat there almost drooling!) and I found it quite funny because they both know perfectly well who each other is! He was chatting about my holiday and told me I look very brown and asked how my birthday had gone so I corrected him and told him it is this weekend not last weekend, anyway he said he’d just wanted to say hi and then off he went. As he left Nic went, ‘Oh, he is quite nice isn’t he?!!’ So Isaid, ‘Nooooo, I’m trying to give him up!’ She also said that when he was talking about my b’day she had the overwhelming urge to invite him! We finished our coffee and discussed my b’day a bit more then left as they were chucking us out!
I went over to my bike and saw that someone had left a post-it on it. My immediate reaction was that it was someone objecting to me parking on the pavement but then I read it: Hi lovely, If you fancy nipping round for a glass of red on your way home it would be lovely to see you & I have something for you (No, not that!!) Hope to see you soon x x So I knew I was going over but was determined not to do anything. Fortunately my will power was assisted by the fact that I’d been away for a week with 2 girls and my ‘personal grooming’ was not up to my usual standards and I knew I’d never let him undress me in the state my bikini line and legs were in! I’m not as dim as I look! I got home, dropped my bike stuff and walked over to his. He let me in and poured me a glass of wine (white because I think red tastes vile!) and then wandered off to get me a purple envelope, he’d bought me a birthday card and wrote inside, ‘Happy 21st lovely x x’ and he’d bought me a £21 gift voucher for my favourite shop! In the voucher he’d written ‘To you, from Me’ and I was being cynical about the fact that he hadn’t put my name or his but then he confessed that he wasn’t sure how to spell my name because he knows two other Lydias and they both spell their names differently. His lodger came back after a bit and we all stood talking for a while, which was a little awkward, mainly because DC and his lodger are such different people and that obviously causes a tiny bit of friction. Well I told him I was behaving myself and he asked if I hated him and said that he thought I was going that way and I said that it wasn’t that at all so he paused and said, ‘Is it the other way?’ So I said a little bit. I also told him that I was tying to be cynical about us and he asked what I meant and I said that I didn’t want to because he’d defend himself. He promised not to so I said that he wouldn’t so I said, ‘Just thinking that f it wasn’t me it would be someone else…’ and he actually looked so horrified I may have to change that opinion of him. He said he wasn’t going to even start on that and shook his head then gave me a hug. We were hugging lots and he asked if I felt bad about me and him and I said that I do now so he said he did too because it was a bit of a horrible thing for us to be doing. He also said that he thinks about me all the time and that I’d really gotten under his skin. He told me that if the situation was different (by which he doesn’t just mean the girlfriend issue he also means the age difference) then we would have got married! He’s a d*ck lol! He pointed out that if he wasn’t with his girlfriend then it would still be weird what with our ages so I said, ‘I knew that would bother you!’ But he said that it didn’t bother him he just thought it could be strange. Anyway I was at his from 10 ’til 3am! He had to get up for work at half 5! So I guess he must like me a bit if he’s giving up on so much sleep for me! He asked if I’d ever wondered why he hadn’t asked for my number and I said I hadn’t wondered but he said that he knew once we started texting that it would be a lot of banter and the whole thing would get bigger so I said I didn’t wonder because it would just have been an easy way for “someone” to find out and also I have spent enough time waiting for guys to text me back and I didn’t want to have to be thinking that he wasn’t texting me back because he was with his girlfriend and he agreed that he didn’t want to ‘do my head in’. He also pointed out that while the whole ‘us’ thng was going on I’d been out with other guys and 2 of my exes (really not sure who he is referring to there, depends on what he means!) So I admitted that he was right but that there’s a difference between a relationship and a succession of psychos that I picked up! He said that is true but that it’s not like I was waiting around for him or anything.
Apparently while I was away he went in to the chav shop to see me (he claimed he’s not stalking me but it would have been over a week since he saw me and when he told me he went in to great detail about why he went in!) We agreed that we now only see each other on neutral territory (gym, coffee shop, his or my street and my work – lol practically never then!) He said that there’s only one other woman he’s ever wanted as much as me and she was a model, but it’s not looks it’s when someone gives the right messages, sounds cheesy I know but how much I want him I understand it. I told him that my friends wanted a tour of the neighbourhood because of him and the psycho and the pervert so he said that if we all turned up on his doorstep he would be very happy and would let us all in, as long as he got some time alone with me… God I’m in too deep. Obviously we’re not going over but there’s a chance he’ll be working in town on saturday night anyway so we might see him. Which could be very good or very bad! Argh, anyway, best go. I will do another post soon, probably, and I’m sure I will have remembered more about our ‘last night’.
Ok, I’ve never actually read ‘The Rules’ I just have a vague notion that it basically says don’t do the running…I think. Anyway I was pondering the other day upon that ‘The World Should Revolve Around Me’ song, I was saying to Joe that it’s my song because of the, ‘I’ve had a lot of failed relationships / I don’t get involved ’cause I’m not equipped,’ line. He then joked that it was my song because of the, ‘world should revolve around me,’ bit. This got me thinking about whether I am like that in relationships and I realised I’m totally the opposite. When I’m with someone we do what he wants, eat where he wants, sleep when he wants, go where he wants…and how can I expect to be happy living like that? How can a relationship be successful like that? Basically I do what I want on my own (go to the gym, museum, have coffee, read a book, go shopping, absolutely everything!) and then when we see each other we do what he wants to. I’m sure you can see my thinking here because I go out with men who have full-time jobs and I’ve got all the time in the world to ponce about doing what I want. Basically I live my own life and then become an accessory to his in the evenings. Bad times. So my rules, having disected my past relationships pretty fully are thus:
I am hoping that these will help me when (if!) I get in to another relationship because I can read them and remind myself that not doing these things cost me my relationship with Joe. although me and Joe were clearly wrong for each other we would have learnt this earlier if I’d followed what I already know anyway!
Hey!
After I last wrote I went to the gym and bumped in to Joe (my ex – the only normal one) and he’s having a bit of a crappy time lately so, to cheer him up, I decided to tell him about mini-dick! It was the funniest gym session ever! We were both absolutely wetting ourselves and I didn’t get any training done! Unfortunately FGG was there and probably thought me and Joe were together, or, since he sees me with DC all the time too, that I’m the gym slag! Anyway that aside I was telling him about Sam and he suddenly realised that he knows Sam!! And how does he know him?! Because Sam is apparently the city bike! Joe’s known him for years (not as friends) and apparently Sam is always in town, often on his own, and just starts talking to random people and then buys them drinks because he’s loaded! Oh. Dear. Then we got on to a discussion about what an absolute c*ck he is and I mentioned that he’s not the biggest guy in every sense of the word (I also pointed out that I don’t know anyone else who thinks it’s a sensible idea to discuss their sex life with their ex but this issue was swiftly brushed under the carpet!) Joe was absolutely wetting himself at just how small Sam is (I have very small hands so you probably won’t get the full horror of the issue unless yours are equally tiny but make a fist as though giving a hand-job and then imagine a guy having a penis only an inch bigger. Exactly.) I then tried to demonstrate the two-finger hand-job which totally confused Joe and I had to show him on a handle to some gym equipment! It was so funny, I was crying with laughter!
I pointed out that I was somewhat worried that if I went back to his again it would be a bit awkward (Lyds: I’ve brought Durex / Sam: I’m going to need smaller…) and Joe suggested I take a thimble!! So funny! I also said that I thought it might be like a terrace house and maybe went back further than I thought… At which point me and Joe were absolutely wetting ourselves! I then said that I wished Ian was there and Joe told me that Ian would be there that night. Since I’d done absolutely no training I told Joe to pass on the message to Ian that I’d see him at the gym to tell him about my latest stupid situation. Anyway I then rushed home and threw a sandwich down my throat and headed off to work. I had a missed call from Sam but as I (a) didn’t want to speak to him and (b) was in a rush I ignored it. It wasn’t a bad evening and time passed, as it tends to.
Afterwards I rode straight to the gym and met Ian. I told him the whole story again and it wasn’t as funny as when I told Joe but I think that’s more to do with the fact that me and Ian always go off on tangents! My back had started to hurt too and I realised that it was because of a position I’d been in with Sam (We were both fully clothed, he put me on my front and I lifted my upper body by resting on my forearms. He then got on top of me and started pushing up against my bum so I stuck my bum higher in the air) If you don’t get that description then don’t worry Ian didn’t either. So, classy bird that I am, I layed on the floor of the weights area in the gym and showed him! It was very funny and Ian told me we were going in the changing rooms, which was amusing, and I said if we were having sex it was going to be on the squash courts! I also confided in him about the fact that Joe was my first (I’d sworn Joe to secrecy over that one) and he admitted that it had been a year since he last had sex (at my last birthday!) Ian really is so lovely. When we’d finished in the gym (not that either of us actually did anything) we decided to get changed and then meet up to walk out (as you do lol!) So we stood outside by my bike until the gym actually shut! I showed him the message from Sam calling me a paedophile, at which point I noticed I had a new message and it was him saying, ‘Do you not return calls x’ So we laughed a bit and carried on chatting and then my phone started ringing and it was Sam so I tried to get Ian to answer it and at first he didn’t want to, then he did but couldn’t figure out how to answer it. It was very funny! Unfortunately it stopped ringing before he figured it out.
However both Joe and Ian promised to try Sam’s w*nking method and let me know how it went! I knew Joe wouldn’t though because he has a girlfriend and I sure as hell wouldn’t have appreciated him trying some new hand-job technique for his ex when I was with him! But Ian actually asked for my number (yeh, we’ve only been friends for a year and he knows pretty much everything about me but only now do we exchange numbers!) and promised to let me know what happened (as I pointed out it could have been really good!) I then started off home but ended up on a slight detour to buy ice cream ) good times. When I got there I felt a bit bad about Sam so I text him saying that I was sorry and I’d been out on my bike, at work and then at the gym, so he text back with, ‘until now lol yeh ok then’ so I explained that my gym doesn’t shut until after 11 and that I was at the supermarket as I was texting. He then told me he’d be getting home soon and asked if I wanted to go over so I said I couldn’t because of my parents. He then put, ‘Your [sic] not 12 get over here and stay the night.’!! So I said no, I told Joe and Ian about it afterwards and Joe said that Mini Dick really has a way with the ladies. Very funny times!
Anyway the next day Ian text me to tell me that the ‘Doorbell Method’ that Sam used was crap and does nothing for him. I text him back to say that I thought I’d got rid of MD and we agreed that this was a good thing but told me I had to get back out there and provide more funny stories! Anyway on Friday I wandered over to a cash machine not too far from my house to check that I’d been paid, which I had, and on the way home I had a feeling that either DC or MD were going to drive past. Lo and behold MD drives up next to me! So I went over to his window to talk to him and I gave him a kiss. He was looking really tanned, which it turned out was from a sunbed session! (a) Don’t tell everyone and (b) I’m pretty sure you shouldn’t be staying on them long enough for someone to presume you’d been away even though they’d only seen you two days before! Some woman pulled up behind him and I told him to get out of the way and he refused to because he’s a spoilt brat. So I started walking along and he drove next to me at walking pace asking what I was doing that night! In the end I agreed to ring him when I got home. So I got in and rang him and me friend, Fiona, from uni and neither of them answered so I, as you do, got all paranoid that my phone wasn’t working so I rang MD again and no answer! Then as I hung up Fi rang me back so clearly not my phone, just him being a (very little) d*ck.
Then I worked Sat, which was ok, and afterwards I decided to buy myself some little shorts to wear in to town that night and then went to the gym. I did a quick session and bumped in to Mike (a friend of my little brother, he trains like crazy and his brother works in the bar at the gym and clearly flirts with me.) He told me that my legs were looking a lot thinner and then mentioned the rumour going around the bar and kitchen staff; that I’m ‘dynamite in the sack’!!! Good Lord! Well after this I got my arse home, got ready and went up to Nic’s (I was looking good by the way; little shorts in grey, black top and 5 inch black stilletos!) then we went in to town. It was a good night, nothing special though. Sunday I worked again and then went to the gym and saw Joe and Ian again! It was another funny session. I’d trained alone first, then trained with Mike and then went over to chat with Joe and Ian. I demonstrated the ‘position’ for Joe and afterwards we both agreed that he had probably seen me in that position before! Amusing! We also decided that next Sunday I’m going to their’s for a bbq (I’m not, we were just having a laugh) and then ‘bbq’ somehow evolved to ‘spitroast’! As we all went to leave Joe said quite loudly, ‘See you at the spitroast.’ As he went in to the changing rooms, unfortunately some guy was coming out at the same time and he properly looked me up and down!! Joe and Ian were in hysterics and Ian kept saying ‘spitroast’ as men walked past! Lol, good times! I then had to work Bank Holiday Monday too, which was pretty sh*te. After my shift I went straight to the gym for a swim and felt much better afterwards ) The b*st*rds at the chav shop have, however, been ringing me all morning and I’ve missed all their calls. B8ll8cks am I working again! They can go f*ck themselves!
Love Lyds x x x
Just a quickie ‘cos I’ve got to get to the gym (although for some reason my weight has dropped to 66.8kg – not a huge drop but I usually only weigh under 67 when I’ve just been dumped!)
Yesterday I replied to Sam’s message on my wall with something like, ‘Lol, just my drunken neighbour wanting a chat at half 5! I’m good thanks, how are you? I’ll probably give you a ring later x x’ Anyway almost as soon as I’d sent it he rang me. He asked me to go over to his so I said I would. I knew what was likely to happen but couldn’t be a*sed with sorting out my bikini line and shaving my legs so I decided to lie and tell him I’m on my period if he tried to go any further than my waist band! Ha ha. So I went over and we were chatting for a bit and he asked what time I’d be going to the gym and so I lied (again) and said I was meeting DC there at 5 – so that I had an excuse to get out of there at a set time instead of making it awkward by announcing I’d had enough of him and wanted to go to the gym. He started teasing me about the fact that, ‘You like your neighbours, don’t you?!’ and he then took the p*ss because DC is another male neighbour so I said that there was nothing going on because DC’s 42 and he then said that that made it worse so I kept defending the fact that nothing was going on between us and he started winding me up and calling DC a ‘paedo’. Well Sam is quite an offensive person anyway so I just laughed at him but we got talking about some of my friends who are still at his gym who are older than DC and who actually are just friends and Sam decided that it was probably me who was the weird one for spending my time with ‘all these old men’ and then said that he bet they all kept perving on me!
Well at some point we may have ended up in his bed… He has great arms and shoulders and he’s nice and tall but his torso has nothing on DC’s! Also he has the smallest penis I’ve ever seen. Truly how is he so big and it’s so small?!! I’ve never been good with the whole deep-throating thing but I will always have a couple of token attempts but who needs to deep throat the man whose c*ck doesn’t hit the back of your mouth?! I understand that the last two men I’ve been with were both hung like horses but I really do doubt that that has altered my perception to such a level that I see normal and think small. If we’d had sex I actually think it would have been an, ‘is it in yet?’ job! Good Lord. He also made things worse by putting two fingers at the top of it (I’m aware this is TMI; you might want to skip to the next paragraph!) and then kept pushing it down in to his balls! If I was a man and had a very, very small penis then I don’t think I’d be doing things to make it look smaller! Bl**dy hell! Anyway, he’s very sexy and a great kisser and certain things he did were pretty good so I figured I could probably overlook the tiny penis (in all fairness it would not be difficult to overlook it).
Anyway we then realised that I’d been there for two and a half hours and we both really needed to get to our respective gyms! So off we both went and he gave me a kiss and told me to ring him when I finished at the gym. He knew I had to train and go to the shops to buy a new hairbrush so when I got in at just gone nine I rang him and he didn’t answer. So I decided to put some faith in him and sent him a message just saying that I’d just got in from the gym and asking what he was up to and he didn’t text back. Not overly surprised there really especially as I’d been so long with shopping and the gym. I then went on to Facebook and his status had just been changed so he clearly wasn’t busy and it said, ‘Thanks for not listening!’ So since he hadn’t answered/replied I got paranoid that I’d done something! I then noticed that he’d deleted the post I left on his wall!! F*cker.
I was very confused so I text Soph pointing out that I’d been over to his that day but he’d said that I could go to his that night too and now he was being ignorant. We were saying that men are tw*ts and we’re giving up on them when he text me back saying, ‘In bed paedo x’ What?!! Ok, I understand it’s a bit of an in-joke between us but not that I’m a paedo! As I pointed out to Soph that’s both morally wrong (who calls someone a paedo in a text when they like them?!) and technically wrong (I go for older men!!!) what a freak! So I rang Soph and explained the joke and we were absolutely wetting ourselves that he’d been an a**hole deleting my post on Facebook and not responding to my text for ages and then, when he does reply, he accuses me of being a sex offender! F*cking hell! His brain is clearly the same size as his penis. Small.
Obviously I decided against replying to his message, mainly because he deleted my post on Facebook and I later realised he was on Facebook on his phone so it’s not even like he left his phone in another room while he was on the computer. Was an a*se. Well I’d better go gym anyway, it’s going to be a rush as it is!
Love Lyds
He-llo!
Well yesterday I was well and truly p*ssed off with Sam, as you may have guessed from the rant at the bottom of my post! He didn’t text back last night but I decided to give him a chance and text him this morning being a little more friendly than last night! Well I didn’t actually have to because he text me this morning asking what I was up to, this was our little exchange:
Sam: ‘What you up too x’ (I know, his spelling is usually ok as well)
Lyds: ‘Trying to make myself get up but I’m too comfortable! What are you up to? x’
Sam: ‘Not a lot want some company in bed x’ (Now you see why a lack of punctuation p*sses me off? Does he want company in bed – ie a statement – or is he asking if I want company in bed – ie a question?)
Lyds: ‘Well, I’m up now, but that would’ve been nice! What are you up to tonight? x’
Sam: ‘Not a lot coming over x’ (F*CKING PUNCTUATE BOY!!)
Lyds: ‘Can do if you like? On saturday you decided you were taking me for a meal at some place about an hours drive away tonight! I think me coming over might be a better idea lol x’
I think that’s the best possible way for me to get in to the sentence the fact that we technically had plans tonight anyway. He hasn’t text back but that doesn’t surprise me hugely. He left a message on my Facebook wall saying, ‘Morning babe hope your ok, anyone woke you up early lately lol xxxx’ Which I, obviously, haven’t replied to yet. I’m thinking that the reason he’s all over me like a rash again is because (a) I changed my profile picture on Facebook so it is now a very sexy shot whereas before it was me and a friend with drinks and (b) a bouncer that I made friends with on Saturday has added me as a friend and then left a message on my wall saying, ‘Million dollar smile!! xx’ Ha. So I think I may be going over to his tonight, however I still want to see DC at the gym so I’m going to be there for about quarter to five so I’ll probably finish at six-ish and then ring him to see if he still wants me to go over.
However he has his status as something about waking up really smiling, God knows that’s almost certainly nothing to do with me and a friend of his has put something on there about him giving her a lift somewhere and he said he would definitely be there on time after hearing what his present was going to be… I don’t know whther he’s more like James the unreliable tw*t or Dave who tries it on with any woman he ever meets. I think it’s equal. Hmm. Well the guy from the bike place rang me a minute ago asking if I’d go over to the shop to see him. I won’t be doing that but sweet of him to ask. I really need to go out and buy a hairbrush because my room seems to have eaten mine but it’s absolutely p*ssing it down! I may leave it until I want to go to the gym to buy one. I need to stop eating today, last night I ate a tub of Haagen Daz strawberry cheesecake ice cream as well as a Twirl, some Starburst and a couple of marshmallows. I am one fat biatch. This morning I decided that if I am going to sleep with Sam tonight then I need to be at my skinniest and then promptly got up and ate a chocolate bar. Nice one. Right I best go get ready as it’s nearly half 12 and I’m still not dressed. Student life for you kids. Study hard, get in to university and spend your days doing sweet FA.
Love Lyds x x
Well, I was right to be optimistic about the weekend! It was much better than I could have hoped! I wandered in to work on Saturday, happy at having been on my bike, and it turned out I was going to be on the tills all day with the kid who has a crush on me. He’s a real sweety and, in all fairness, I’ll flirt with anything that moves. So I was having a nice time chatting to him, then went for lunch and when I got back my lil friend went on his lunch break. I was working away when I looked up to see DC in the line in front of me! I saw him and looked down laughing, when I looked back he was looking away smirking so we knew we’d seen each other. As I finished serving I looked up and DC was at the front of the queue so I grinned and said, ‘Who’s next then please?’ And he laughed and said that it had worked out well. So we exchanged pleasantries and then I realised that he’d brought over some shorts without a barcode so I said, ‘Oh trust you!’ and he laughed and said, ‘Yes because God forbid you’d actually have to do some work!’ So I went and found a pair with a barcode, got back and served him etc. Then as he was leaving he said, ‘Now when you see me wearing these in the gym you’ll know I got them here.’ Or something equally interesting and I replied, ‘To be honest I don’t notice your shorts in the gym.’ And he pulled a face pretending to be p*ssed off and said, ‘Oh no offence taken!’ So I, ever the pervert, said very loudly as he was leaving, ‘If you were buying one of your tight tops I’d notice it!’ And we both laughed. Oh dear lol. However that was the most animated I’ve seen him since we stopped sleeping together, which I take as being the beginning of August. We slept together in July (3 times) and haven’t at all this month.
Anyway when my little friend got back from his lunch I told him about this exchange (he did ask why I kept laughing!) and he spent the rest of the evening clumsily trying it on with me. Bless. Anyway me and Nic then went in to town and I didn’t wear my top and jeans, I wore a tight black dress with a red belt around my waist and my f*ck-me shoes. It’s a good look even though I can’t walk. We had 2 pitchers of cocktails, which was fun, and then went on to our usual bar for vodka and the local rugby team was in there. I ignored them studiously which at one point even involved fake texting my fake boyfriend. Happy days. We went and sat down and after a while 2 brothers that Nic slept with came wandering in together! A few moments later 2 best friends that I went out with (note the difference) came in! It was interesting and they all kept wandering over to us for a chat. Quite amusing but I know that they were all thinking the same thing about us so I continued to read messages in my inbox with a loving look plastered across my face. Nic was p*ssing me off because she kept telling me to smile when I didn’t want to be anywhere near the rugby losers. After a bit one of the more well-known players came over to us (by well-known I do mean well-known. The local rugby team are in the premiership so while they’re all w*nkers, they’re talented w*nkers nevertheless.) He drunkenly asked why I’d ignored him when we walked in and I said that I hadn’t (apparently we’re best mates now, despite his somewhat questionable behaviour in the past.) Then he was saying that we’d better go to the club they were going to otherwise we’d be in trouble, it was quite amusing, I didn’t realise that we were such good friends.
Anyway, Nic managed to behave pretty well around her ex and came across as not caring what he was doing. After they’d all left we went out to get our taxi and sat on a wall around the corner from the bar. As we were sat there a really fit guy walked up and me and Nic had seen him in a Varsity once or twice and called him ‘Fit Varsity Guy’ (for obvious reasons lol). He was with a friend who walked off pretty quickly but he stood in front of me and said, ‘Well fancy seeing you here!’ Which made me grin like a mad woman, then he said, ‘The amount of times I’ve seen you walking up that road…’ and he’d lost me! I had no idea what he was on about but apparently he lives just down the road from me! And always waves at me and I wave back! Well I thought he was someone else that goes to my gym and that’s why I was waving! He also said that he’d first seen me in a club 5 months ago and hadn’t seen me since. I remember seeing him in the club because I was out with Soph on a Saturday night for once so when I got home I checked my phone and it was the 1st of March that we’d gone out, 5 months ago! It would be so creepy if he wasn’t so hot. He also said that he’d once seen me walking up the road at quarter to four so he drove past at the same time the next night and I wasn’t there. Again creepy if he wasn’t hot! So he added me on Facebook on his phone while I was there and then asked me out and took my phone number. He’s called Sam and lives just down the road. When I walk to the end of my drive I look one way and see DC’s house and look the other way to see Sam’s! Ooops. Anyway he kept telling Nic that I’m beautiful going, ‘Nicola, your friend is very beautiful.’ Which I found hilarious mainly because he was calling her Nicola lol. After about 20 mins our taxi got there and I kissed him goodnight and got in to the car. When I got home I had a text saying, ‘beautiful x x’ so I just said thanks and have a good night.
At half 5 I had a phone call and it was him on his way home saying that he was going to come see me and I had to put some clothes on otherwise he was knocking on my door!! So I said no but jumped up and put on some underwear and jeans then climbed back in to bed. A bit later I had a phone call and he was outside so I told him I wasn’t going out (I could see him at the end of the drive!) and then he went to walk to my door so I told him I’d go down. I threw on a top and went to see him. I dragged him round the side of the house to have a chat and we were both giggling and kissing and he had to give me a hug because I was cold. After a while I managed to pack him off to his own house and he text me asking me to go to his for breakfast as he was walking home! So I said there wasn’t time and he text back, ‘Always time sexy x’ He rang me again during the night and I ignored him because I had work the next day and he is ridiculously sexy and would persuade me of anything! The next morning I rang him and we had a chat while I had breakfast, he hadn’t been to bed and I promised to ring him when I finished work. When I did finish I was busy sorting out my bike as he rang and then he rang as I was taking my bike stuff out when I got in so I rang him back. He asked where I was and asked me to go over to his so I went over for an hour. He’s soooooooo fit!! I did wonder why the hell he’d be interested in me because this man is phenomenally attractive but we sat watching TV with him cuddling up to me and then we were kissing for a bit. Good times. Anyway I had to go back to mine for food and he said that he’d ring me after he’d gone to the gym so I ate and then went to the gym (we go to different gyms by the way) and he didn’t ring. So I decided to be adult and text him saying, ‘Hey, what are you up to? I’m so tired now so you must be knackered! x’ and he didn’t text back… Hmm. So, and I appear to have developed a bit of a ‘no-b*llsh*t’ policy with men because I’d given up on him when I woke up this morning! Anyway he didn’t ring/text all day so I slagged him off on the phone to Soph (we were having a proper gossip – it went on for over 2 hours!) but she told me not to write him off so quickly – ever the optimist bless her. Anyway I did write him off but he text me at about midnight saying, ‘You ok x’ So I text him back (a bit confused/p*ssed off) with just ‘Yep thanks, are you ok? x’ although I’m not sure. Maybe that’s a good message since his was so brief but he’s not text me back. I gave him adequate reason to though, didn’t I? Anyway we’re supposed to be going out tomorrow night but I doubt that we will because he probably won’t remember it anyway. Bl**dy men.
I went to the hairdressers today (my hair looks nice by the way, thanks for asking lol) and DC walked past looking ridiculously fit. Dave the attempted rapist rang me the other day trying to get me to visit him for a couple of days , clearly not going to happen. Aren’t men c*cks though. I mean really. If they’re not cheating on you then they’re cheating on someone else with you, or they’re gay, or they’re totally unresponsive f*ck-wits, or they’re ugly as hell and you have no chemistry, or they try to attack you, or they’re ridiculously old and your friends question if they’re a paedophile, or they’re fat, or they just lead you on. B*stards.
Hullo!
I saw DC today at the gym and he is still a miserable f*cker. Surprise, surprise. Why do men never have any energy? Me and Nic went for coffee today and we both said the same thing. I am aware that I have a ridiculous amount of energy but most men seem to have none. When I was with Joe and when I was with Phil we used to go to bed have sex (or similar) then I’d be bouncing and want to go for a run! DC’s lack of energy is making him a right moody b*st*rd and I can’t be arsed with him. I’m not particularly worried about the video anymore because (a) he’s a copper, he knows when he’s on dodgy ground legally, (b) he is totally despondant at the idea that anyone would think he’s a perv, (c) he’s got a real chip on his shoulder about being thought of as lacking intelligence or class, (d) it’s his relationship that would be ruined if he did anything with the video, (e) all of his friends are married with families and as much as they might want to see a 20 year old having her brains f*cked out I doubt they want to see their jammy b*st*rd mate doing it, (f) he’s 42 and if he still shows his mates videos like that then he’s not at all the person that everyone seems to think he is ergo he can’t show people otherwise they’d all have very different opinions of him.
Today he was talking about selling his sexy red Ducati (he only got it 6 weeks ago for f*cks sake) and he said that he was looking at getting a dirt-cross bike. I laughed because he was switching so easily when I’d have had to save up for months/years and agonise over the decision to get the Ducati and he got really defensive saying, ‘What? What are you laughing at?’ What a c*ck. I’m not sure either of us is attracted to the other at the moment, although it may just be that his missus is back from her holiday and he’s exhausted so he can’t satisfy one woman let alone two. Although to be fair he never really satisfied me, daily servicing would satisfy me, less and I’m left like a hyped up Duracell bunny. Not helpful. I was talking to him early and my words were coming out faster than I could pronounce them so I laughed and apologised saying, ‘I’ve not even trained enough to justify being so hyped up!’ and he said, ‘Yeh you really were talking rubbish the other day!’ (When I was there with Chris) So I explained that then I really had been hyped up and that we’d gone for a Chinese after and I sat there buzzing and he raised his eyebrows in a kind of, ‘Oooh, lucky you!’ way, which I think confirms his jealousy towards Chris. Ass-wipe. Also I don’t know why he sold his match tickets (change of circumstances etc.) He’s not out with his missus this weekend unless it’s on Sunday in which case he may as well have gone to the match and just not stopped over? Hmm, anyway.
I really fancy FGG again, I’ve decided that if he’d been at my old gym I’d have presumed he, along with the rest of the male population, fancied the pants off me. But unfortunately that was at my old gym where all the old pervs gave me confidence and at this gym I have no confidence because all of the men seem to want a conversation that doesn’t involve my breasts, which is nice but makes me think that they just see me as friends, which they probably do, and hence my lack of confidence! But FGG is one of God’s most impressive creations, a lot of time and effort must’ve gone in to that man. Anyway another young man who is interesting me somewhat is Will, I don’t know if I mentioned him but he’s a gym friend’s older brother who is a year or two older than me. Although he can come across as being a bit effeminate I think I should give him a chance; he’s easy to talk to, sweet about how I look in both my bike stuff and my gym gear (apparantly I look sexy in my bike stuff. It’s a Gore-Tex jacket and is practical not attractive!) He is also very intelligent (not normally my type but I think that I need a break from thick men and DC who thinks he’s intelligent but lacks the basic knowledge to understand that anyone who is genuinely intelligent will see him as a pretentious pr*ck who is trying to be someone that he isn’t. Ooh see the venom in that sentence!) He was also a competitive kick-boxer and, I’m not going to lie, that really is my type!
Well work tomorrow, which I can’t wait for *ahem*. Fortunately I should be going out on a run in the morning (good times), I get to ride my bike to and from work (also good times) and Nic and myself are going to a bar for cocktails when we go in to town tomorrow (gooooood times) so apart from the 7 hours of work plus lunch break (when I get to go buy food from the shops and who doesn’t love an impromptu meal?) tomorrow shouldn’t actually be too bad. Plus I may get to wear my new top with jeans and boots. Although the cocktails place isn’t that classy so I may wear something a bit tarty-er lol! Then Sunday it’s more good times on the bike and I get to go to the gym in the evening, plus only 5 and a half hours at work, I may see Will at the gym and that’s the weekend gone for another 5 whole days. Whoop! Then on Monday I am having my hair cut (about 2 inches off the bottom because it’s a mess) and, for the first time in my life, I’m having some colour put in it!! This is to avoid looking too ‘biker’ which I think I do at the minute. I’m also applying for new jobs. I’ve applied for 2 and just waiting to hear about interviews, I’m in the middle of filling out an application form for another and I’m going in to town for another look around shortly. Also the guy from the bike shop (has a girlfriend, persists in ringing me, I got stoned in his car with him not long ago) rang me and asked if I was interested in a job at his place. I was practically orgasmic until I realised that it would have to be full-time and I have a degree to work my ass off for. I was well p*ssed off though, it would’ve been a great job! Although on the other hand, even if it had been part-time I would be having to spend hours in a confined space with a man hell-bent on sleeping with me and it’d also be very stereotypical biker and I may as well wander round with long greasy hair, a fag on and a very butch girlfriend with naval tattoos. Not. My. Scene. One of the shops that I’ve already applied to for a job would be perfect to counter-balance the biker look. Please let me get interviews!! Please?!!
Anywho, I’m off! Hope y’all have a good weekend!
Love Lyds x x x
Hallo!
Ooooh, I feel good ) Just did a training session with a friend from my old gym and I feel awesome! Bl**dy love him! I’ve got to remember this; ages ago (when I was at my old gym) I decided that a good CV session was better than sex. Now considering I hadn’t had sex at the time this was a pretty bold decision. However I have now had sex with two men who have both been capable of giving earth-shattering orgasms yet after my workout today I was bouncing about and thought: This really is better than sex! Truly, once I’d done the workout I was on top of the world! I think it’s partly because after sex you’re vulnerable, which would be ok if it had been with Phil because I really liked him but I didn’t really like Joe and I’m not a massive fan of DC either, after my workout I’m strong and I’m on top of the world! Nothing can bring me down and it’s amazing! I was a bit apprehensive about training with my friend today because I prefer to train alone and I’d agreed to meet DC there and maybe have coffee after so I was a bit p*ssed off at myself that I hadn’t told my friend I was busy.
When we got there it was so nice having a gossip and then we did a great session and he really knows how to push me! Anyway I half told him about me and DC, who I was p*ssed off with because he hadn’t turned up, then I noticed him on the mats doing some stretching and he didn’t come over to talk to me (in all fairness I was clearly deep in conversation with my friend, Chris by the way.) After we’d done our first lot of training Chris was talking to one of our joint friends from the old gym so I went over to talk to DC and, my Lord, he’s a miserable f*cker, he really is. It took him forever to finish what he was doing and then finally pause his ipod to say hi. He was clearly off with me so I asked if he was tired and he said, ‘As usual…Is there a ‘y’ in the day? Are you tired?’ Well I was bouncing, and I told him so! Chris then asked me what we were going on next and so that was then end of the conversation. Me and Chris went on the bikes and he really put me through my paces, then we went on the treadmill and I had to save Chris a place while he rang someone so I went on them and saved one for him. Then DC started walking towards me to a treadmill and he obviously knew where I was because he made a point of not looking where I was even though it was directly in his line of vision, so I waved and he still didn’t look up as he walked by and on to the running machine next to the one that I saved for Chris and then when he got on it he finally aknowledged me and I hyperactively explained that Chris was training me and he basically laughed briefly and then pulled a face at having to do a run and then got on with it. So Chris and I did our run and decided to go for a coffee in the gym bar so I went back over to DC to say bye and he just nodded and said bye, I don’t even think he smiled. He’s so boring.
I spoke to the guy from the motorbike shop about it and he told me that I need to think about it logically and that DC would be p*ssed because ‘men get territorial’ about things and that DC probably didn’t care if I pulled when I was out getting drunk with friends because it was unlikely to mean anything and that at the gym it was supposed to be me and him. Sometimes that boy talks a lot of sense and sometimes he talks complete bullsh*t. I’m not entirely sure which one this is. If anyone is bothering to read this let me know which you think this is?! Anyway I found it quite amusing that he was behaving so childishly and so did Chris. Vair amusant.
Anyway I’m now looking for a new job because the chav shop is doing my head in. On Sunday I swear I only spoke to tell people how much they needed to pay and I wanted to claw my own eyes out. They also say I work slowly, which is like the reports I used to get at school, ‘If Lydia isn’t interested in a subject then she works very slowly and sometimes we’re not entirely sure she’s in the room!’ That’s because I’m not; I’m in my own head. Alone, thinking etc. I can’t be doing with the tedious-ness of working there, I know somewhere else will probably be just as bad but it’s taken 6 months for the novelty of this place to wear off so should be a while in the next place hopefully.
I also saw DC yesterday before I left for the gym and we were chatting for a bit and (surprise, surprise) he was moaning again. Apparently he’s had to sell some tickets he had for some match he really wanted to see because, ‘circumstances changed’ basically something to do with his missus that he didn’t want to tell me about. So why tell me he’s had to sell them anyway? Why bring it up? He really is very self-centered and actually interrupts me to talk about himself! Good Lord, he’s p*ssing me off now. I can only see it was a massive mistake to do that video but it’s a bit late now really. Sh*t. Oh now I’m getting worried about it. B*ll*cks. I need to get rid of it.
Heylo,
I’m writing this with a raging hangover (even though I stopped drinking about 20 hours ago!!) so my apologies if it’s a load of sh*te! DC was only away for about three days in the end and my crying over being everyone’s dirty little secret lasted until my period started! On Monday I bumped in to DC at the gym and we were talking for a bit and then went in to the pool area together. We had our legs entwined and were chatting for a while (I can’t really remember what about because there’s a lot of alcohol still in my system lol!) but when we both went to leave he kissed me on the cheek in front of several people! The next day I saw him at the gym again – just so you don’t think there’s any stalking going on here, I got there first on Mon and he clearly followed me (lol) and then he got there first on Tues and I followed, so either mutual stalking or no stalking, you decide! He came over to me and said, ‘You’re looking lush as ever.’ So I raised my eyebrows and looked down at my manky gym kit so he said, ‘Alright then you look like a withered old hag! If the complimentary approach isn’t welcomed!’ Anyway we ended up in the pool area again and I have a new bikini and he was very enthusiastic in his appreciation of it ) He was wearing ridiculously short/tight swimming shorts – they were proper Daniel Craig ones! We went and sat in the spa pool together again and a rather large man that I vaguely know joined us. He really was pretty huge and has massive breasts but we were talking to him and he kept coming out with really weird stuff and DC was pulling faces at me so I was trying not to laugh. Then the poor guy said something about having to have a check up now he’s 40. I was gobsmacked because this guy looked awful next to DC so I looked at DC who wasn’t looking at me and didn’t react but he said later that he couldn’t look at me because he knew he’d laugh!
Anywho, I told him I’d be working on the next night and he said that he’d be having coffee with a friend near where I work so if I finished early enough I should go meet him. Unfortunately I had to point out that I would finish work at around the same time as the coffee place shut ( Anyway we went our seperate ways but on Weds I was getting my bike out of the garage ready for work and he came to say hi on his way out for a run. anyway the fat man from the spa pool had added me as a friend on Facebook! So I told DC and he found it really, really creepy! Which it is to be fair, how did he know my name?! Very odd. Oh but Tuesday was infinitely the best day at the gym; FGG was on the treadmill directly in front of me training some old woman and DC was on the treadmill one down from him. I’m surprised that I didn’t fall off when faced with the physical perfection of that pair. I really am such a pervert lol!
Anyway, best go bed soon. I have work tomorrow. Whooo.
Lyds x x x