Me getting in to stupid situations…

Oops, been a while, hey?!

Well, I can now no longer talk to Joe and Ian properly because after the joking about a spitroast Ian, unsurprisingly, took the joke too far and was texting me about it (one of the messages was, ‘we are both watching the porn channel thinking of you x’ Ummm, ok…) So I have been avoiding them for some time but then last night bumped in to them briefly. Hmm…wasn’t awkward at least.

Anyway the big news is; I “broke up with” DC! Kinda. Well we slept together a few times in June, then August I didn’t really see him for most of it – I think he was away for quite a lot of it though. Then this month we’ve been together a few times but I went away with Fiona and Soph from uni and they don’t know I’ve slept with him but they do know how much I like him and that he really likes me too. We ended up talking about him on the last night and the both said that he obviously really likes me (which, cynical little me, I’ve always believed that he just wants some sort of ‘outlet’ and I’m convenient!) They both agreed with me when I said that I had to give him up ( This had been brought about because he had said that we’d meet up at the gym one day last week so I planned the day around that and went for coffee with Nic at lunchtime. Well who should be there but DC?! He was just reading his book and while I was taking my jacket off and sorting my hair out I could see him looking over at my waist/hips out of the corner of his eye (Ha to PNA who thinks my hips are too wide for DC to be interested!) So I sat with Nic and she was saying that she is happy to be rid of Ady (her ex) unless she thinks of his body so I said, ‘I know what you mean…’ and went to look meaningfully at DC so she’d get what I meant but he was already looking at me so I went bright red and looked down and left him confused about why I was blushing just looking at him and her very confused about why I was going red about her ex’s body!! Lolz indeed.

Anyway, as he got up to leave he looked over at me and Nic was checking her phone so he mouthed, ‘Come over to mine.’ So I mouthed the same back to check what he’d said and he nodded grinning. So I went over to his and we had a slightly awful “session” purely because of a contraceptive malfunction. Dear Lord. I am now hoping for my period to arrive when it’s supposed to but I’m doing a test early next week if it’s not arrived by then and if it does arrive then I’m doing a test the second it finishes to be certain that all is ok. But we were lying together afterwards and he mentioned that he’d done a class at the gym that morning and that he was meant to be at some party that evening so basically despite having mentioned meeting at the gym to me twice he wasn’t actually going to be there. A*se. Well I’d started avoiding him and when we were away we all agreed that I was doing the right thing. Anyway when I got back from holiday I still really wanted to see him but was attempting to behave, then I went out for coffee with Nic (we only do this once a week, I realise it sounds like a daily occurence!) and he was there with a friend so I casually waved at him and went and sat down to wait for Nic. When she got there we were both having a wonderous time (obviously, coffee=greatly exciting) and out of the corner of my eye I saw him and his friend leaving so I thought that was for the best and he hadn’t waved or anything. A few minutes later I saw him walking over so he came up and said ‘hi’ so I introduced him and Nic and he shook her hand (I’m sat there almost drooling!) and I found it quite funny because they both know perfectly well who each other is! He was chatting about my holiday and told me I look very brown and asked how my birthday had gone so I corrected him and told him it is this weekend not last weekend, anyway he said he’d just wanted to say hi and then off he went. As he left Nic went, ‘Oh, he is quite nice isn’t he?!!’ So Isaid, ‘Nooooo, I’m trying to give him up!’ She also said that when he was talking about my b’day she had the overwhelming urge to invite him! We finished our coffee and discussed my b’day a bit more then left as they were chucking us out!

 I went over to my bike and saw that someone had left a post-it on it. My immediate reaction was that it was someone objecting to me parking on the pavement but then I read it: Hi lovely, If you fancy nipping round for a glass of red on your way home it would be lovely to see you & I have something for you (No, not that!!) Hope to see you soon x x So I knew I was going over but was determined not to do anything. Fortunately my will power was assisted by the fact that I’d been away for a week with 2 girls and my ‘personal grooming’ was not up to my usual standards and I knew I’d never let him undress me in the state my bikini line and legs were in! I’m not as dim as I look! I got home, dropped my bike stuff and walked over to his. He let me in and poured me a glass of wine (white because I think red tastes vile!) and then wandered off to get me a purple envelope, he’d bought me a birthday card and wrote inside, ‘Happy 21st lovely x x’ and he’d bought me a £21 gift voucher for my favourite shop! In the voucher he’d written ‘To you, from Me’ and I was being cynical about the fact that he hadn’t put my name or his but then he confessed that he wasn’t sure how to spell my name because he knows two other Lydias and they both spell their names differently. His lodger came back after a bit and we all stood talking for a while, which was a little awkward, mainly because DC and his lodger are such different people and that obviously causes a tiny bit of friction. Well I told him I was behaving myself and he asked if I hated him and said that he thought I was going that way and I said that it wasn’t that at all so he paused and said, ‘Is it the other way?’ So I said a little bit. I also told him that I was tying to be cynical about us and he asked what I meant and I said that I didn’t want to because he’d defend himself. He promised not to so I said that he wouldn’t so I said, ‘Just thinking that f it wasn’t me it would be someone else…’ and he actually looked so horrified I may have to change that opinion of him. He said he wasn’t going to even start on that and shook his head then gave me a hug. We were hugging lots and he asked if I felt bad about me and him and I said that I do now so he said he did too because it was a bit of a horrible thing for us to be doing. He also said that he thinks about me all the time and that I’d really gotten under his skin. He told me that if the situation was different (by which he doesn’t just mean the girlfriend issue he also means the age difference) then we would have got married! He’s a d*ck lol! He pointed out that if he wasn’t with his girlfriend then it would still be weird what with our ages so I said, ‘I knew that would bother you!’ But he said that it didn’t bother him he just thought it could be strange. Anyway I was at his from 10 ’til 3am! He had to get up for work at half 5! So I guess he must like me a bit if he’s giving up on so much sleep for me! He asked if I’d ever wondered why he hadn’t asked for my number and I said I hadn’t wondered but he said that he knew once we started texting that it would be a lot of banter and the whole thing would get bigger so I said I didn’t wonder because it would just have been an easy way for “someone” to find out and also I have spent enough time waiting for guys to text me back and I didn’t want to have to be thinking that he wasn’t texting me back because he was with his girlfriend and he agreed that he didn’t want to ‘do my head in’. He also pointed out that while the whole ‘us’ thng was going on I’d been out with other guys and 2 of my exes (really not sure who he is referring to there, depends on what he means!) So I admitted that he was right but that there’s a difference between a relationship and a succession of psychos that I picked up! He said that is true but that it’s not like I was waiting around for him or anything.

Apparently while I was away he went in to the chav shop to see me (he claimed he’s not stalking me but it would have been over a week since he saw me and when he told me he went in to great detail about why he went in!) We agreed that we now only see each other on neutral territory (gym, coffee shop, his or my street and my work – lol practically never then!) He said that there’s only one other woman he’s ever wanted as much as me and she was a model, but it’s not looks it’s when someone gives the right messages, sounds cheesy I know but how much I want him I understand it. I told him that my friends wanted a tour of the neighbourhood because of him and the psycho and the pervert so he said that if we all turned up on his doorstep he would be very happy and would let us all in, as long as he got some time alone with me… God I’m in too deep. Obviously we’re not going over but there’s a chance he’ll be working in town on saturday night anyway so we might see him. Which could be very good or very bad! Argh, anyway, best go. I will do another post soon, probably, and I’m sure I will have remembered more about our ‘last night’.